"Be at Peace," by Saint Francis de Sales
Do not look forward in fear to the changes in life;
rather, look to them with full hope that as they arise,
God will lead you safely through all things;
and when you cannot stand it, God will carry you in His Arms.
Do not fear what may happen tomorrow;
the same understanding Father Who cares for you today
will take care of you tomorrow and every day.
He will either shield you from suffering or will give you the unfailing strength to bear it.
Be at peace then, and put aside all anxious thoughts and imaginations.
it's nothing but more frustrating and difficult to live without a mother with each passing year. i have so many questions. so many worries. and so many things about me, that i would like to know where they come from. i know, that where i am today, is because of her beautiful angelic presence she carries with me. watching me. guarding me. guiding me. i just wish it was different, and wish she could physically be here. i want to drink tea with her and craft. i want to go to flea markets and take weekend trips to go antiquing. i want to learn how to be a good mother and what i means to be a good wife. i want to hear her stories, look at her photos, and know she lived a good life. i just want her. back. it's really, not fair, at all. and i hate to be stubborn, but i really do not think it's fair that life dealt me this deck of cards. but i deal. i breathe. i move on. i stay at peace.
but inside, i hurt.
1 comment:
well im glad that i was in your deck of cards :o) love you bff and miss seeing you (and Chef outside everyday!)
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