Thursday, July 31, 2008

"today is the greatest
day ive ever kown
cant live for tomorrow
tomorrows much too long
i burn my eyes out
before i get out"
......

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

mr a-z.

(with all of my apologies in advance to alex)



i am stealing her boyfriend and we are seeing that beautiful man at radio city october 10. i dont know if i am more freggin excited to see the swell season, or finally seeing jason mraz this fall. holy macaroni. his new album? perfect.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

just for the record:

i just cut up fresh cucumbers from my garden, sat at the kitchen table with jasmine (yes, she has her own chair at the kitchen table) and read better homes and gardens. i even pulled out recipes of a blueberry candy apple pie i want to make. not sure what my life is, but i am not ashamed.

what gives?

driving into astoria today is on my list of things to:
NEVER DO AGAIN.
why is it, that driving into quaint little astoria, one of my favourite neighborhoods, is worse then the freggin midtown tunnel and driving into chelsea? and soho! i would opt to drive into soho, park in soho, then drive another day in astoria, and park in astoria. i dont understand it! queens is turning into somethin' terrible these days! all that double parking and alternate side parking and men in bicycles delivering food that shoot out of nowhere, it's dangerous in that neck of the woods.

i also dont understand why my bamboo plants are dying with all of the attention and l-o-v-e i have been giving them this week!

philly tomorrow to see the. spring. standards! i am relishing in my three day vacation i have right now. i never want it to end.

Monday, July 28, 2008

peace.

i have the next three days off and it is such a cleansing feeling. i took the night off from everything.
EVERYTHING.

i shut my phone off, shut my ears and had solid 'me' time. i went to the gym, took a bath, cleaned my room (dusted! mopped! shined! waxed!) and now i am sitting in my room, with only candles lit... no lights except for the dimness of my macbook and candles surrounding me. i am content. i needed this. i went through photos, updated picture frames, put away laundry that has been piiling up (realized i own way too many articles of clothing), swiffered my closet, re-read cards from friends, organized all my blank greeting cards and while at the gym, caught up on the pile of magazines that have been sitting in my room.
speaking of which - in the latest time out new york, i learned that the littlest, nothing, quiestest, one line actor who is on broadway, gets a good 78k a year. holy canoli. i wanna know what anthony rapp is makin' these days. i almost fell off the treadmill when i read that! i think investing in voice lessons may pay off...

i have been spending a great deal over at etsy.com and have managed to find some cute finds. i have birthday presents for birthday princesses coming in the mail, and a few little papergood products for myself. there is no better treat then to treat yourself to homeade goodness.

yesterday evening i was a party diva, attending to a baby shower for a co-worker, and then a surprise goodbye party for my dear, warm-hearted, beautiful, intelligent best friend since middle school, miss alex. she leaves august 12th for med school in the caribbean, and to say i am going to miss her is a complete understatement.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

welcome home.

i left long island friday for a weekend of solitude, laughter, insane humidity and to re-visit my peaceful heart. coming back into the city today, my heart skipped a beat when i saw the nyc skyline. there is something so comforting about being away from ny for a few days, and driving into the city and feeling like it's your first time seeing it.

i also purchased a book, that i kid you not, is my soulmate of a book. it's titled 'help for helpers: daily meditations for counselors". beautiful. i love when a book connects to my soul and speaks my mind. i also got "each day a new begining: daily meditations for women". i am amped.

i also picked up hari kunzru's newest novel 'my revolution' and i am not setting any expectations for it. i just watched the film "two days in paris" and i didnt set and expectations for it, and it did not thrill me. something tells me kunzru's novel will do the same.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

TRIBUTE:

if you know me, you know my gays. and if you know them, you know that they all team up and tell me, on an everyday basis, how i am a gay man in a woman's body. i thought about it today. it is true. i love musicals, workout to musicals, enjoy wine tastings, good cheese and pricey home decor. i snuff my nose at straight guys who wear cargo shorts and have developed a sick obsession for boys in skinny jeans (preferably sevens) with converse. (normally with a size xs tshirt or a cashmere polo). this being said, i need to give a little "shout-out" if you would, to a select few who have put good into my life:

george - well, for starters, as everyone states, he is my other half. where there is a george, there is a melissa. we think alike, talk alike and act alike. a look between us, says a zillion words. but more importantly, george keeps me on my a-game in the fitness sector. because of him and his daily motivation, i run everyday and blast my biceps. he keeps me healthy, and we have healthy dinner dates, complete with two bottles of red wine. hey, they say red wine is healthy, didnt they? and of course, let's all thank george for the neon pink stilettos that sit in my closet, and for being there. always.

cody - i am allowed to say this, but cody gets the "thank you for being hot" award. due to him, i have experienced many free drinks and stares when i am with him. he is gorgeous. because of his looks, he keeps me looking good. he tells me when i need to "apply lipgloss" and when i "uhhh... you need to not wear flats and put on heels. i dont go out with girls in flats". he fixes me.

matty - he is everything you could want in a man! he is gorgeous, super intelligent, artsy and appreciates art, home cooking and he is one of the most talented photographers i have ever had to the chance to meet. not just this, but he cuddles with me! he expands my knowledge with tv shows such as, the history of the potato chip and the history of the pickle... and he also loves his champagne. without him, i would be in a pickle. cuddle monkey. matty is also my reason for my deep love for feist, deepak and scientific literature.

jonathan - not only does he date my beautiful george, but he also dates me. and he gets me into invite-only, posh lounges in gramercy, where mary kate olsen and elijah wood hang out. we are a bad influence on one another, and the outcome is usually us feeding each other vodka. good vodka, at that.

dom - for making out with me when drinks are consumed.

aaron - for letting me be his stand-in girlfriend when he gets hit on. AND for telling me a good jewish joke and for being a sarcastic bitch. he teaches me everything i need to know. "get me a beer... please." enough said.

philly chris - for bringing the word "girl" into my daily life. "hey girl, great job on that paper for dr owens!" really, the word is too much.

jp - he gets thrown in here because his apartment is my dream apartment. a freggin artist who works in finance that clearly needs to be an interior designer. plus, he is gorgeous and has the body of steel.

eric - for teaching me to "lock it" in the bathroom. always.

my gap boys - too many to name, but they are all my personal stylists. they are cody's in training, but in my face, everyday.

but. more importantly... they all need to be thanked for bringing this into my life:



i cant even pretend this is a secret obsession, because i am in love. i will admit it:

i am obsessed with girl talk.

i cant get enough! it doesnt even make sense, considering my music style. each person above, is in love with girl talk, and has bought this love into my life. i honestly sit at work sometimes and say "man, i wish i could listen to girl talk right now!" i drive home from work, half getting myself into car accidents because i have to search for the girl talk album. it has become a part of my life, along with a collection of short dresses, high heels, work out magazines, vodka, locking it, a strong sense of self, and a lifetime of friendships.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

lately:

life. school. work. everything.
makes me feel like this:

i went to the the doctor, i went to the mountains...



the title is an indigo girls song, based in manhattan, hating everything about 14th street, references to dylan, psychology, same-sex marriages, smoking pot, psychology, westchester county, a gay best friend and everything else i stand for. first-time noveliest mary weiss did a good job, in my opinion. some of the writing is poor at parts, but it's still an addictive and easy read. the characters drag you in, and all of the talks about therapists and analyzing every little thing is so me. plus, it's funny! i am enjoying myself getting lost in this book.

it even came with this little iMix (no idea what an iMix is, but it sounds fancy): http://www.meriweiss.com/music.html

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

support.

johnny gallagher live at joe's pub august 3rd
johnny gallagher live at joe's pub august 3rd
johnny gallagher live at joe's pub august 3rd
johnny gallagher live at joe's pub august 3rd
johnny gallagher live at joe's pub august 3rd

Monday, July 14, 2008

tomorrow starts a summer filled with classes, texts and well - endless drives to westchester county. i decided to take one course this summer and i am content with the idea. i feel like i need a switch in my summer routine, although i cant help but remember - the last time i took a summer course was during my stay in spain. ages ago.

my professor is rumoured to be difficult, but i am looking past this. i am determined to manage my 4.0 and battle it out. i have been stalking phd programs and post-grad school professional programs and it's looking bright on my end. i have been looking at some non-profit jobs in the area, and even submitted my resume to a few and have gotten some calls. i would love to be a recreational aide in a nursing home, and am willing to kiss my wonderful, fufilling salary gap offers me, for a low, entry-level salary a nursing home is willing to offer me. im not putting all my eggs in one basket, and im not jumping into anything just yet. just peeping around.

george's birthday was this past weekend and it was filled with sunshine, blue moon, bbq's and good friends. we went to tobay for the day where we battled the sick waves hurricane burtha is giving us, and then had a big cook-off at casa de burns. i love birthdays and celebrations and good times. plus, i made a homeade red velvet cake that was BANGIN'.


[mary, george, jonathan and myself - july 08]

they are my life.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

color me.

i just re-watched this with the biggest smile on my face. i think i always will.

daniel is something else, and stew... just no words. if you thought i was speechless when i met jim norton, please place stew in front of me. thank you.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

is it inappropriate to read "bonk: the curious coupling of science and sex" on my break at work? i am unsure of this.

tonight, tonight.

after over a year of convincing and pleading, george finally FINALLY signed up for yoga classes. he didnt even sign up for bikram yoga, he went the advanced route! he totally bypassed hot yoga, and is now speaking in all yoga terms to me. i am so happy for him. yoga has impacted my life in such a powerful, positive way. not just with the way my body looks or feels, but my mentality and my overall personality. i am relaxed and breathe myself out of stressful situations and anxiety. it's changed my entire perspective. it has opened my eyes to a whole life of peaceful-ness, healthy-eating, good sleeping and a flexible, beautiful body. i got matt into yoga, and he has since got me into deepak, and now we both have george hooked on yoga and deepak, at the same time. the boy is in a peaceful bliss, and this makes my heart happy.

speaking of yoga, last night as i was driving to my yoga class, this song came on the radio:



i could not ask for a better song at a better time.

Monday, July 7, 2008

spring & summer.



matt doyle announced he will be going on as melchior in 'spring awakening' august 4 - 18th. and i am more then freggin excited. i have been out of the spring awakening loop for a long time, but if there is one person i cannot get enough of, it's matt doyle.
he blows. me. away.
his voice, is one of the sweetest voices i have EVER heard, and not to mention, he is spot on, every night. i cannot think of anyone who deserves more praise then that boy. he has touched my life in a personal and professional way, and he also happens to be one of the nicest, caring, and geniune person in the theatre industry.

when he took the role of hanschen a few months back, i was excited for him - because he needed to get out of that understudy role. he is way too talented to be an understudy. although i didnt agree the role was right for him, you sometimes have to take an offer that would be ridiculous not to. i understand that. he acts his heart out every night, so i give him a lot of credit. i always miss him understudying melchi, so i am pleasently pleased, and dancing around, that i will FINALLY get to see him in his true glory.

yay sunshine.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

music within

this movie inspires me to make a change. or, i can also say, it reassures me to know that i AM going to make a change.

a good film for those history buffs, those inspired by the kind acts of others and those who are studying psych or special ed, and know the ADA and IDEA acts like the back of your hand. true, inspring, raw and touching.

and the most brilliant part --- michael sheen's acting. freggin worthy of much praise and support.



www = http://www.musicwithinmovie.com

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

happy july.


i just watched "becoming jane" and although it was not amazing, a few things...

-i am in love with anne hathaway. i think i have made my girl-crush on her quite obvious to those around me.
-james mcavoy. hi! where have you been my entire life. he is rumoured to play bilbo in the 20-long time way-11 adaptation of 'the hobbit'. i am more then thrilled.
-anything jane austen, is another word for love. i broke out my grandmother's vintage edition of 'pride and prejudice' and i am going to start reading it again. austen wrote it when she was twenty years old. TWENTY. i am on the cusp of twenty four and have only written some poems, prose and journalism articles. i could never fathom writing a freggin novel. especially one as timeless, classic and beautiful as hers. this time around, i want to take it slow, so i can take it all in. every word, every sentence. the copy that i have of it is, is so old that the pages are coming out. i love books like that. good, worn in books. you can tell they have been read and loved by their readers.

sigh. my grandmother recently told me i need to talk to the poolboy in the backyard, to spice up my life. i told her my life is spicey enough with my books. and by books, i literally mean - my novels and my textbooks. they are my number one priority right now. she laughed, and agreed. no spice for me. no gracias.